dust-settle

1:54 a.m. ~ 2003-06-06
and now?

i can hold out. i can. i can pretend to ignore the situation even as it looms behind me and i am blocked by the shadow its creating. i can pretend nothing bothers me. ever.

people only know as much as they can see. they see a happy face, then presumably you're happy. my friday night face.

i can write here how great it was, the drinks were strong, the people were funny, the good time everybody had. and i can write it with tears streaming down my face and you would never know.

thats the funny thing about all this faceless communication. people can only know as much as you allow and anything else is bottled up for your own mind to sip slowly and savor...or spit out.

if ive ever been before, i know i am now, officially confused. in love. and have no fucking clue what to do now.

take a glimpse back
- - 2003-12-01
rose land - 2003-11-29
this is easy as lovers go - 2003-11-26
closed for repairs - 2003-11-24
you spin me right round baby, right round - 2003-11-23

classicism ~ futurism